Why?
Simply because I don't want other people to feel the way I do.
So this year I have 2020 vision:
One night this week I went to bed not feeling great, and by not feeling great I mean mentally not feeling great. Something triggered a feeling inside me which spiralled further and further out of control. So much so that I convinced myself that I was unattractive, fat, ugly. All kinds of negative adjectives about how I look.
I woke up the next morning and I still felt the same. All day I just got on with it, I created distractions and I didn't let it take over my day, But nearing the end of the day I cried. I cried because I don't want to feel like this anymore.
I've been a, let's say a prisoner, of my own mind for about ten years. Most of the time it's manageable, but more often than people know, I fight battles within my own mind and I don't come out on top.
So it was through a waterfall of tears that I wrote this realisation down...
I realised why I use social media, why I blog, why I do the job I do, and I understood one of the biggest reasons I recently joined an Arbonne team. I have the platform and the power to help people. I have the experiences to understand how this, whatever this is, feels. And subsequently I have the passion and the drive to help others overcome this, while I overcome it myself.
To find myself.
To find others.
To help others.
With passion.
With purpose.
With style.
And with a little bit of sarcasm.
Friday’s Giirl
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